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If you know me well, then you probably know that I'm a feminist. Actually, even if you don't know me well you probably know I'm a feminist. My students seem to figure this out about me one week into the school year as if it's oozing from my pores. Even the Twitter robots seem to know I'm a feminist, often placing feminist bloggers, writers and organizations in my "Who to follow" list.
Despite all this I've had trouble committing to truly being a feminist blogger. I'm a feminist and I'm a blogger but I've always doubted if I could or should call myself a feminist blogger. I've told myself I can't be a real feminist blogger because I don't have a degree in women's studies, because I don't know enough about politics, and because I'm not in the online feminist in-crowd.
Sometimes I wonder if I even want to be a feminist blogger. Do I want to feel responsible for writing about about every stupid thing clueless politicians say about women and our bodies? That's a lot to keep up with these days. I do have a full-time job, you know. And besides, writing about that all the time could get pretty depressing.
So I considered billing myself as "the joyful feminist," and focusing on positive, uplifting feminist news, but I'm not sure I can live up to that either because sometimes I need to vent. Sometimes I need to bitch and moan about the stupid things clueless politicians say about women and our bodies. Sometimes I need to complain about the way women are represented in magazines, movies, and music videos.
And furthermore, how do I balance this all with my desire to blog about writing?
I've been blogging for over four years and I still don't feel I've found my place here in the blogosphere. And honestly, I'm a bit angry with myself about that. For the past four years I've had a long list of blogging goals that I have failed to achieve because I've just been revving my engine instead of really getting in the race. But I guess I feel that before I can get started I need to make sure I'm in the right lane.